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Sunday, April 30, 2006 || Waking at 6 is no joke....

This morning I got to wake up at 6 coz of work... my my... it has been about7 yrs ago when I have to do that for work... luckily nowadays, it is not like tat... if not, I probably have to wake up at 5 or something... it is amazing how your body tires due to the lack of sleep... Jus a few hours of sleep debt and a zombie appears.... I came back abt 2 plus after noon and my parents were back from the nice cruise which I cant go coz of this exercise... sianz...

So looking forward to my phuket trip... have been stopping myself from spending so as to go there n grab good deals... long list of things I need to buy... one of my dear fren have the luxury of going USA recently... must be super fantastic... though I wont be looking forward to the long airplane trip... Always wanted to go Chicago to see Michael Jordan's statue, to San Fran to cross the bridge and to NY and Manhattan to see their Night Life there... Enjoy your stay Shulin !!! Miss you "cold" jokes in sqn... Anyway, still praying hard for my cse in Sept to France... then to Anfield, "You'll Never Walk Alone"... one of my dream destinations...

I finally opened my Ipod Nano after 2 weeks plus.... after comtemplating whether to sell it, keep it to give to friend as present for bdae or open it and use it myself... finally decided to open it since I could put it to good use during the trip to Phuket... now, I got to go Apple Shop and buy some accessories... going to take budget airline and seriously, the lack of entertainment on board is something i rather pay abit more for... but my frens wanted to save some money, and besides, the normal airlines are all full... so too bad... got to live with it... But I will get to watch the FA Cup Final there... how cool is that?! haha... Go Liverpool...

Later, Channel 5 is going to show Harry Potter again... the very first one... wow... I think I was still in Uni when that movie came up... The one thing I liked abt Harry Potter is Quidditch... fantastic game...

My knees are still having the bruises, so I tink I will have to skip gym this week... Hopefully by Sat, I can go for a session... want to continue my healthy lifestyle... and hopefully I can catch my B-ball kakis for a session on Sun too... 4 more days to the end of the exercise... Hang on Eric...


Hisashi Mitsui |4/30/2006 07:00:00 PM
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Saturday, April 29, 2006 || Andy Lau's Mei Ci Xing Lai

one of the oldies I like, I forgot who intro me this song... tink is one of my HS frens... but anyway, i love the lyrics for this... enjoy...


Hisashi Mitsui |4/29/2006 10:57:00 PM
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(0) comments How Motorcycle Brands come about

I love this clip... really funny... got it when I was in Uni... my fav is still the Honda one... enjoy manz...


Hisashi Mitsui |4/29/2006 10:23:00 PM
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Today I have the luxury of staying up a little later during this exercise period. Let's talk about something... One of the most cliche statement is "Follow your heart". and usually this has to do with "matters of the heart". Now, is it really the heart? Of coz, medically the heart is unable to decide and think in a rational way... On the other hand, sometimes, pple will say, "Follow your mind, not your heart" ... so is it Follow the Mind better or Follow the heart better?

Today during a period of time, I have the time to chit-chat with some colleagues, including a few good frens like Becks, Dino and TLK abt choices in girls, who to pay when dating, and a couple other topics... It is interesting how some pple think... Like I have a colleague who will go all out to impress the girl when going after her, fancy restaurant, pay for her... but after getting together, they starting going dutch... reason, they are both students... then we also talk abt one of the methods to really see if this girl can go thru thick and thin is the famous SBS+Hawker centre test... no fancy restaurants, no stylo-melo outings... plain simple...

Indeed, from the choices we made to go out with this person more, we are exposing the possibility of falling for this person, then to the time when we allow your emotions to flow with this person, to the time we feel comfortable enuff to get together... All these are decisions... Then to the way you handle your relationship in terms of compatibility, to deciding whether to carry on or break when major problems come up, to the decision to marry... wow... a long process indeed... now, the question is, Do you follow your heart or mind? Like for example, u noe there is a certain type of girl u dun like, or rather, will never fall for and be happy with. Yet, some bugger comes along, belonging to this type, and unknowingly, you fall for her? Do you follow your mind or heart and allow yourself to continue? or when you are with someone aldy... but somehow, you know you will not agree to get married with this person, but u keep trying to convince yourself you can, until a point of time you know you had to make the decision to break... do you listen to your heart or mind? Sometimes it is really not easy... some people have made decisions which they could hv regretted for the entire life and stay miserable... lucky ones managed to stay happy with whatever choices they made... To this point, I dun have an answer whether decisions by your mind or heart are better, but one thing I know, if you are able to thankful for whatever thing that happen, your life will be a lot happier. CHEERZ, and good nite.


Hisashi Mitsui |4/29/2006 12:19:00 AM
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Friday, April 28, 2006 || Jay Chou's Ni Bi Chong Qian Kuai Le


I wanted to post this song's lyrics when IT happened. In the end, the chinese characters din turn out well in my blog. I finally found the video... I went KTV with some frens the other day and a lot of them dunno this song... so Enjoy everyone !!!!!


This video is funny.... Jay Chou's acting is really lousy, seriously... though he still appears pretty cute in it... esp with the vending machine...


Hisashi Mitsui |4/28/2006 11:54:00 PM
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To prevent : To keep (someone) from doing something or something from happening

A friend just told me something about prevention... I guess, terms like JUST IN CASE, WHAT IF, comes to mind... Indeed, prevention is something which should be done if you think that there is a possibility of something undesirable happening... I fully agreed... Personally, I am a moderate risk taker... in terms of life in general... Just my involvement in autosurf, my method in them, will probably explains this personality of mine... Just prevented something from happening... so one less risk in life...


Hisashi Mitsui |4/28/2006 09:18:00 PM
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Thursday, April 27, 2006 || Fall In Love Again... Part 5


The next day, Noel brought Allie to her mother's grave. She would, as usual, picked some flowers and put it at the grave. Noel would remove the weeds that have grown over time, and clean the mud and dirt away. The picture still looked beautiful, and Noel couldn't help noticing how similar Allie looked like her mother. And he was glad that Allie had become what she was then, and even Allison would be proud of his achievements with their love fruit. As he stood there, he silently asked Allison whether he was capable of falling in love again. A cold wind blew by, as if to tell him the answer which he expected from Allison. However, he was also wary of the potential problems. Noel was thirty-five and Lynn was twenty-eight. Having a seven-year-old kid wasn't exactly the type of ideal situation for a guy his age to step into romance. Before they left, Allie took a flower bud and handed it to Noel. "I think Mummy would like you to have this." she said to her father. He carried her up over her shoulders, trying to hide his tears from her.


The next week passed pretty fast. Noel's trading began to pick up, with some announcement from the company he invested in. His consulting service also received quite a bit of good news, with some friends' recommendation and help. His mood could not be better. It was a Friday, he decided to go to school to pick Allie up, and using that as an excuse to see Lynn. As he reached the school, he saw a man sitting on a bench, smoking. He did not remember this face being a staff during the Parents' Day. Like all primary schools, Allie's school will have an assembly before the end of the day. As the school gathered, Noel saw Lynn at the back of Allie's class. Once finished, he made his way over to Lynn and as he approached, Allie saw her father and ran to him in excitment. Noel gave her a big hug, as Lynn walked over to greet him.

"Hi Noel, so free today, to pick Allie from school?" Lynn asked.
"Yah, got my work done pretty early today, so just give this little devil a surprise. Oh, would you like to catch a movie tomorrow?" Noel asked, trying to sound as casual as possible.
"Oh, thanks for the invitation, but I guess I am not free tomorrow, sorry" Lynn said with a polite smile.
"That's no problem. Got to go, bye !!!" Noel said, waving his hand as well. Lynn waved back and smiled.

As Noel put Allie in the car and fastened her seat belt, he saw Lynn being approached by the unfamiliar smoking man earlier. They engaged in a conversation and Lynn soon boarded his car. Noel coud not help but felt disappointed at Lynn's rejection. Though that was not the first rejection he got, but it was a first in many many years. Many thoughts went through his mind. He pondered whether Lynn would take it as an act to pursuit. He pondered whether he should ask her again. He also pondered who that man was at the school. As his thoughts ran wild, he realised that his interest in Lynn was far more than he thought it was. He was deeply attracted by her beauty, fair complexion, long silky hair, with a great smile, infectous enough to move a room filled with people. He loved her laughter, though somewhat mouse-like but yet with a little sophistication. He liked her love for children, and more importantly, being his daughter favourite teacher. Though a quiet person, she was also straightforward and honest when posed with questions. However, he knew that getting Lynn to fall in love would be difficult, with Allie being a big factor, but getting Lynn to open up her heart would be even more challenging, as she shy away from relationships after what happened in the last one.


Hisashi Mitsui |4/27/2006 11:14:00 PM
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Wednesday, April 26, 2006 || Day-Dreaming...

I am so tired... stayed till 930pm today... oh manz... another 7 days of this... hopefully i can hold on till then... kaoz...

My phuket trip is still abt 2 weeks plus away... and i m aldy planning of what to buy.... my wallet is dying, my sports shoes r dying, my sandals aldy died, i wan to buy another pair of slippers, i need more shorts n Tees for going FF, maybe buy a few nice shirts, and definitely a pair of jeans... oh my... quite abit of things if u ask me...

Was just asking a fren about stoning... then 30 min later, i realised i stoned in front of the showers... then stoned in front of the tv as well... Stoned, aka day-dreaming... i went for a course, and the instructor told me, it is impossible to stop day-dreaming, coz your brain is constantly moving... if u wan to stop day-dreaming, you will be brain-dead... anyway, when you day-dreamed, it is when you concentrate on a certain subject until you lose track of things going ard you... and how many times in your life do you do that? Been day-dreaming a lot lately, on a certain issue, somehow or the other... Have been trying to straighten my tots on it too... perhaps the fatigue has allowed my mind to be more concentrated on the issue... not an easy one as well....

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Hisashi Mitsui |4/26/2006 10:21:00 PM
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Tuesday, April 25, 2006 || I am a Fire Fighter !!!!

A bad two days... first, I was instructed to give a brief, when the bugger wasnt even ard... then my comp, or rather my firefox died on me for whatever reason... now i m using my laptop to type this... what the heck... now i m trying my best to try to revive my stupid desktop... KNS ah... then i m in sqn running ard fighting fire... then this idiot came to me at 1645H and asked me to prepare a brief for 1700H... wth X 2.... sigh... from now till next thu 1200H, I will be fighting fire... YES, i m a firefighter... I am strong... haha...

Anyway, had a good basketball session on sun, but got injured in the midst of a fast break... sianz... got some bruises on both my knees... was bleeding quite a bit that day... then when i took off my shoes, I realised i sprained my ankle slightly.... was trying to rotate it off... so ended up, i went to a sinseh and missed a service i promised a good friend to attend... sorry !!! sad that i cant attend the service... sad that i cant join my basketball kakis next week due to work...

these few days, I spent a lot of time trying to rest at home... get myself fit and fresh when i go to work... had some time thinking about alot of things too.... abt life... work... God.... recently, i had a fren who had to go thru some unfortunate event.... it must have been tough... I hope she hold up well... it is definitely not easy.... sometimes as a fren, i wish i could do more....

here is a prayer
Loving God,
You guide me in dark times
You let me see the light
You bring me strength from within me
You provide me with answers when my mind goes blank

Bless my friends with light
Bless my friends with strength
Bless us with answers
Bless us with energy to carry on

Life's filled with ups and downs
What defines us is how we handle them
Wakes us all up, makes us reach for more
Put the fire in our heart and bring peace to our minds
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This is a pic taken below my block.... nice hor... hee...


Hisashi Mitsui |4/25/2006 08:52:00 PM
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Sunday, April 23, 2006 || Liverpool in FA Cup Final !!!

Yes, it is official, Liverpool beats Chelsea in Old Trafford to progress to the FA Cup Final. It may come true... I predicted in late Nov, Chelsea will be EPL champions, Man U League Cup Winner, Liverpool FA cup Winner, and Arsenal Champions League. Let's see if it comes true...

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Hisashi Mitsui |4/23/2006 02:17:00 AM
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Saturday, April 22, 2006 || Pop quiz....

Have you read the pop quiz? For those of you who dunno, a pop quiz is usually used to describe a question meant for an almost immediate answer, that's y it is POP... Anyway, some fren asked me these two questions the other day...

He was referring character traits. If you go for A, you like stability over uncertainty... familiarity over new challenges... and vice versa... The second question is meant for something else... more about how a person makes choices... you see, sometimes, you could be a person who dun mind both A and B... perhaps just prefer one slightly more than the other... which will bring us to the second question... sometimes some pple tend to choose the easier way out... ie. the job which has a higher probability of getting it... but then again, it may not be the easy way out, jus a simpler choice...

Somehow, these two questions can be related to many aspects of life... even relationships... for example,

Will you choose someone you love or someone who loves you? This is such a cliche question but I am sure many would have encountered it in life before... making a choice between the two... this is especially true for girls, since guys are usually the ones making their intentions known... And if this girl had someone in mind, how? the choice will be difficult... sometimes the choices could be like the first question in the pop quiz, between a simple and stable relationship or a wild, crazy but uncertain one...

Life is abt choices... and consequences... if the future is known, no one will make the wrong choice... but sometimes, if the future is known, it will be more difficult to make the choice... in the end, it is up to you to control your fate... to make your life the way you want...


Hisashi Mitsui |4/22/2006 10:34:00 PM
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Pop Quiz

You have two job offers. All things being constant, only two factors... one is the probably of getting the job. two is how well you know you can do the job.

A. You know this job well, you done it before.

B. This job sounds interesting and a challenge to you. But you dunno whether you can do it well.

But you dunno the probability of getting Job A/B.

Which one would you choose if you can only one?

Second part of the Quiz... if you are given a higher probability of getting the job for the answer you DID NOT choose for the first question, would you change your mind?


Hisashi Mitsui |4/22/2006 02:34:00 PM
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(0) comments What is Love?

What is Love? Let MJ tells u what is it...


Hisashi Mitsui |4/22/2006 09:58:00 AM
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(0) comments Falling In love Again - Part 4

I dun feel like blogging today either... so, just continue with my short story...

In the coming weeks, Noel noticed that Allie enjoyed her time in school more than anything. She worked exceptionally hard in her homework and test. One day, she came back home grinning from left to right. Noel asked her why she seems happy, she said she got a reward today, for scoring the highest in the class for a test. She took out a fanciful pencil from her pencil case and showed Noel. It was one which is similar to the one he had gave Allie earlier. Noel was happy that Allie had learned how to use her hardwork to get rewards. Allie told Noel that Ms Tan was very happy about her results. Noel knew that Allie had found a favourite teacher at school, and perhaps that was part of the reason why she was so happy going to school.

Soon, it was thanksgiving. During this time, Noel will always bring Allie to church and then spent the time making dinner for her, while allowing her to watch her favourite cartoon shows. This year was different, Allie actually told Noel that she invited a friend over for thanksgiving. Noel thought it was a friend in school. When the door bell rang, and the door opened, Lynn was standing at the door. "Hi, thanks for the invitiation." She handed a bottle of red wine to Noel. For a split second, Noel was speechless, fully expecting a little girl to appear instead. Allie ran to the door and welcomed Lynn, and pulled her into the house, eager to show her around. Noel closed the door and watched his little angel be his tour guide around the house. Lynn turned and smiled at Noel before Allie pulled her into her room. Almost forgetting the food, Noel hurried back to the kitchen and decided to prepare more food, realising that the original portion will not be enough.

As the two ladies finished their tour and settled into the living room. Noel called out to Allie to come to kitchen to serve a drink to Lynn. Noel wanted to confirm with his daughter that she invited her and not her classmate. Allie nobbed and said Lynn had no family in the country, and could be lonely, like Bubbles. "Are you unhappy daddy? I thought it will be good to have another person for thanksgiving," Allie said. Noel put his left hand on her cheek and smiled, "It is thanksgiving, we should be happy we got a guest. Now, serve our guest a drink from the fridge darling." Allie skipped to the fridge, grabbed a packet of lemon tea and handed it to Lynn in the living room.

Dinner was served. Not exactly a feast, but filled with most of Allie's favourite dish. Lynn can't help but noticed how much Noel loved his little daughter, taking care of her every need. She knew how difficult it is, for a single father to bring up a daughter, and inevitably admire's Noel's ability to do such a good job. The dinner was terrific, filled with laughter and Allie's little questions from time to time. At age seven, her curiosity was far higher than any kid in school.

After dinner, Noel finished the dishes while Lynn and Allie watched some TV. Soon, it was bedtime for Allie. Lynn took the liberty of putting her into bed, with a favourite bedtime story, Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs, as well. When Lynn finally came out of Allie's room, Noel was in the living, and he held up the bottle of red wine which Lynn brought, asking if she wants to open it. She nobbed and soon they sat down on the couch enjoying a glass each. Noel suggested a "game" which was played during his University life, introduce oneself, and what he or she does from young till then. So, using about thirty minutes, Noel told Lynn about his life, from which school he attended, to the girlfriends he had, to the love he had for Allison. From Allison's death, to Allie's naming, to Allie's seven years. Lynn was surprised at how strong-willed this man is, bringing up a daughter who caused his wife's death and yet loving everything about her, and how he changed his life and career to accomodate Allie.

Soon, it was Lynn's turn. Her parents were actually in US with her sister, who is there for studies. She had three failed relationships, out of which the last one finally took a huge toll on her. Her last boyfriend was a jerk. But somehow, she just loved him, to a level which no one could comprehend. She loved him with all her heart, thinking that one day he would change himself for the better. But it only got worse. He flirted with woman after woman after woman, he never took care or even showed concern when she was sick, to him, she was just an accessory, bringing her to show friends and parents when needed and leaving it at home when there is no use. Finally, Lynn woke up from her impossible dream, and broke up with him. It lasted almost a year, but it took so much out of her that she didn't believe in love for the next 3 years. Lynn loved teaching, and had been in the job for 2 years since her graduation. Her dream, however, was to open a kindergarden to bring young kids to learn everything they needed to learn, from the ABCs to respecting elderly, to everything they need to know to be righteous person.

They spent three hours talking abt life, themselves, Allie, and even gossips from the entertainment scene, and finishing the bottle of red wine in the process. The time came for Lynn to go home, but she insisted that she would take a cab rather than allowing Noel to drive her home after the red wine. He sent her up the cab and waved goodbye. Standing at the road, with his hands in the pocket, he recalled how he and Allison first met and played the game of introduction as well. He comtemplated his ability to fall in love again when Allison passed away, and comtemplated it again. It had been seven years since it happened. Allie grew up to be a young lady, and with proper guidance, she would no doubt be successful. Noel returned to his study room, and looking at the picture with Allison, and stared at it for the next one hour, thinking about what his wife would think about Lynn taking her place.


Hisashi Mitsui |4/22/2006 12:37:00 AM
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Thursday, April 20, 2006 || "I Feel Like Slapping you" Day

Moods swings... sometime which usually only applies to girls. I had some sort of mood swing recently, though not the type of mood swings like girls... I m usually a really happy-go-lucky guy... work dulls me for a while, and I will be up and running if I go to somewhere or see someone... or do something... Recently, I am in the "I feel like slapping you" mood. Like today, when I am supposed to start my briefing, this idiot kept talking to my colleague. KNS... no courtesy at all... I totally feel like slapping him... then the same person apparently cleared one of my colleagues' leave request when leave is FROZEN but dun clear my bro, hf... double std... Double feel like slapping him...

Here is a prayer for a friend...

Loving God,
You know our strength and weakness,
You know our wants and desires
Bless us with health when needed
Bless us with a clear head upon obstacles

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I pray to you,
be with my friend through days of storms & dark paths
let her find you even in her pain and fears
hold her gentle, Lord.
Give her strength

Be with me too,
To remember the happy days,
To have the courage to step out again
To have faith in life as in you
Give me might in mind, Amen


Hisashi Mitsui |4/20/2006 09:41:00 PM
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Wednesday, April 19, 2006 || I saw Chen Han Wei !!!

After a suay day on Monday... today had quite nice day... lucky to some extent... started off having a meeting cancelled... so I managed to finish some work in the morning... then had a eye-opening training slot... for a new position... anyway, my supervisor was pretty nice... and very willing to teach... I must say i got high tolerance to different types of supervisor, which is a good thing for me... after work, met up with a fren for a while... hvnt seen this fren for a while... glad she is holding up well... Jia You babe !!! Anyway, I went to FF after that... ready for a good workout... though only 1+ mth into the membership, I can feel myself getting fitter... needing less sleep as well... Anyway, the real cool thing is, I saw Chen HanWei at my gym today, @ FF paragon... how cool is that?! Anyway, he looked really well-built and handsome... wanted to get an autograph, but dun wan to appear so "mountain-turtle"... so... oh well...


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Tuesday, April 18, 2006 || Falling In love Again - PArt 3

Not much mood to blog today. So just this...

After they left the office, Allie walked over to Ms Tan with Noel holding her hand. "Sorry Ms Tan, I will not fight again." It was something comforting to hear, that Allie knew her wrong-doing in the entire episode. "Sorry for the trouble, Ms Tan, the pencil was a gift from me for her first day here, so she liked it very much.", Noel said. "Yes Yes, I loved that pencil, can I have another one daddy?" Allie said, jumping up and down. "Okay," Noel agreed. Noel and Ms Tan smiled as Allie skipped to the car.

"Thanks for everything, Ms Tan" Noel said

"Please, call me Lynn. And don't mentioned it, I didn't do much. Allie is a good kid, very smart and attentive at class. I am surprised about the fight, but also glad she learned something from it." Lynn replied.

"You can call me Noel. And the fight will never happened again." Noel ensured her.

They bidded farewell and Noel went to the car and headed home with Allie. On the way, Allie apologized to Noel again, and Noel knowing that his daughter knew her mistakes, rubbed his hands against her cheek to assure her that everything was fine. As they headed home, Allie told Noel that Lynn was her form teacher and also favourite teacher. Noel used that and told Allie to work hard and not disappointed her in return. This was the first time Noel saw Allie speaking so highly about someone since she spoke of her grandfather who always bring her to the playground. Noel realised that Allie is starting to grow up.

Business was still not looking up for the consulting service, and somehow, Noel was considering to return to the real law world, since Allie seems to be doing fine at school. But he still wanted to wait for things to settle down more. As Noel looked at the internet for more investment information, Allie came in and handed him an invitation card. It was the school's Parent's Nite for all the year 1s. He made a note to attend it on his calender. Allie skipped out of the room after Noel assures her of his attendance. She suddenly stuck her head out and shouted, "I love you daddy." Noel shouted back, "I love you too darling." She ran back to her room cheering yeah and yes.

It was a Friday night for the Parents' Nite. As Noel went through his wardrobe for a suitable attire, he noticed that he had not been wearing his office suits and shirts since Allie's birth. He decided to take a shirt and tie out for the night. As he reached the school, the teachers welcomed him, and directed him to Allie's classroom. He was a little late so he stood at the side as Allie's classmates presented their items to their parents. Allie's eyes brightened up when she saw Noel, and she walked over quietly to him, not wanting to disturb the flow of the events. Lynn led them to an empty seat by the side of the classroom.

"Thanks for coming, Noel." Lynn said.

"Please don't mentioned it, I should thank you for organising the event." Noel replied.

"Teachers don't do much, the flow is almost automatic, with one kid after another according to the name list. I just have to start and end the session." Lynn said.

Noel looked surprised but nobbed in approval, knowing that the children were the stars of the night. When it was Allie's turn, she went up to the front of the classroom, looked at Noel and started reading a short writing. It was about Noel and Allison, about how wonderful a father Noel is and how she hoped she knew her mother before she passed away. She concluded by thanking him and that she will loved him always. Noel tried to fight back his tears, but when he thought how happy Allison will be if she is there, he could not stop the tears from flowing. Lynn handed him a piece of tissue and he mouthed a "thanks" to her.

When all the children of the class finished their items, the parents were invited to a reception while the children packed up the classroom. Noel grabbed a fruit punch and sat at a bench next to the reception area. "Hi, u mind if I joined you?" Lynn said, Noel replied by standing up and waving his hand to the seat next to him. "Sorry to hear about your wife but I must say you did a fantastic job with Allie." Noel smiled and replied, "Just giving my all to her. She is all that I got now as well." As they sipped their fruit punch, Allied appeared and Noel carried her onto his lap. "Daddy, I am hungry, can I have fishball noodles?" Allie asked. Noel, surprised at Allie's appetite, and replied, "Wow, must be a long day for you. There is some food over there, do you want some?" Allie shook her head and insisted on a bowl of fishball noodles. Since her home-tutoring days to then, Allie knew that everytime she did something like pass a test, she can request for something from her father. And Noel would usually obliged. Noel nobbed, and she cheered, "Hurray". As Noel stood up and put Allie onto the ground, Allie turned to Lynn and asked, "Ms Tan, would you like to join us? The fishball noodles near my house is very nice. They will usually give me extra fishball, I am sure they will give you if I asked them." Allie asked. Lynn laughed and turned to Noel, as if to make sure she would not be interrupting anything. Noel looked at Lynn, smiled and said, "If you got nothing planned and do not mind, why not join us?" Noel said. She nobbed.

Reaching the hawker centre, Allie offered to place the order, something which she liked to do. As Noel watched her daughter walked to the stall, he couldn't help but noticed how happy she was that night. He did not know what was the reason, but somehow felt it had to do with Allison. "It must be tough to bring up Allie all by yourself." Lynn said, staring to the same direction as Noel. He smiled, and went back to his drink. Taking a sip, he said, "I wanted to be there for her all the time, for her to be happy." Lynn smiled back, and said, "She is a good kid and will be a good lady too." As the noodles arrived, Allie enjoyed her favourite dish. Noel and Lynn talked about their respective work, and about Allie and her performance in school. After the supper, Noel sent Lynn home, with Allie fast asleep in the backseat. Noel chatted with a lady properly for the first time since Allison passed away. As Noel reached home and put Allie in bed, he sat at his desk, listening to his favourite song, thinking about the happy times he had with Allison, how innocent her smile was, how beautiful her hair was, how they will mouthed I love you to each other, and how she will lay in his arms, listening to the same song.


Hisashi Mitsui |4/18/2006 10:39:00 PM
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Monday, April 17, 2006 || A Moment to Remember.... again

Sometime ago, my fren posted a movie using youtube on his blog. And it captured my heart... Like what the notebook did. So today, while I went out to buy my printer ink, I actually went to look for this movie's VCD and got it. *Victory* Somehow, these movies with memory illness just got this attractiveness to me maybe... it shows the cruelty of life... of nature... that somehow, we shld all be glad that there is someone for us, be it a husband/wife, bf/gf, or family...

the story is about the love of two characters, Su-Jin and Chui-Soo. Su-Jin is suffering from Alzheimer, a brain illness, which lets you lose all your memories, even the identity of yourself and will forget the recent memories first, then the earlier ones... Chui-Soo, the husband, did everything to retain her memories after they knew of her condition, photos, notes, anything, paste all ard the hse...

some of my frens could not watch the whole movie... here is my fav part, and also the saddest... Su-Jin couldn't remember how he is... and mistook him for her ex, Young-min and said,"i love you, young-min" before he left the hse for work... Chui-Soo was hurt by played along, knowing that it is not her fault... she realised her mistake later in the day when going thru the notes in the hse, and wrote this letter.

"I'm sorry, I am so sorry. I never meant to break your heart. God, what have I done? Are you crying now? I didnt want to see you crying or in pain. I wanted to make you happy, but all I've done is put you in agony. Chui-Soo, oh my love Chui-Soo, Don't get me wrong. I love you and only you. I only think of you and only remember you. How badly do I wish to show you my heart!! Is there any way I can do that while my memory remains? Oh, my heart races. I, Su-Jin, love you, Chui-Soo, only. I don't want to forget that and I must not. Can you see that? Can you see my heart? My memory is back now but I am afraid it will leave me again, before I tell you everything I want to say. I love you and I am sorry. I met you because I am forgetful. I am leaving you because I am forgetful. You are the best thing that ever happened to me. How thankful I am to God for sending you as a gift to me. I don't have to remember you, you are part of me. I smile, laugh and smell like you do. I might forget you but nothing can drive you out of my body. Although you've never told me you loved me, I know deep in my heart that you love me. Forgive me for leaving you. Please for the last time, do me a favour. See my father." She told the father to prepare a Petition for Divorce so that Chui-Soo can move on. The selfless love that both of them give each other, is really something worth loving and living.


Hisashi Mitsui |4/17/2006 10:51:00 PM
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(0) comments Worthy of Love...

Had one of my suay-est days today... dun wan to elaborate too much... but I guess I was quite disgusted by why all these things happened togetherin a day, bringing my day from ok, to low, to no morale... That's Life... and worse, it is a Monday... trying to get back from a running nose now... shag...

Had a smoking (he smoked, i dun smoke break) chat with one of my frens couple of days ago, well, he is getting married soon. Was really happy for him. Just about some years ago, I was just keeping him company after his 7-yr gf cheated on him. I can totally understand how he felt then, having been thru it myself... But it took a lot from him... he was pretty affected... He went single for quite a number of years before this one. Now, he is going to get married to this 1-yr gf. I was puzzled, and asked him whether 1-yr was sufficient. Then I got an interesting answer...
Me : wow, one year, u sure she is the one?
Him : yes.
Me : How?
Him : eric, u been thru my ex with me. U noe what happen and I'm not going to deny I was hurt then. And I realised that it is more important to find someone worthy of your love than someone who is more ideal or compatible with you. You can have your differences with someone and work on it, but it is another thing to be able to trust this person. She gave her commitment to me, and that is more important than anything else. So it doesn't matter if it is only one year coz I know she is worthy of my love. And we got along fine... so...
Me : ic... so to you, this commitment she gave you made her worthy of your love.
Him : yes, and it is two-way, so I dun tink I shld waste time, I am not young you noe.
Me : Yeah... Happy for you bro.

Worthy of love... something which i pondered about for very long after that very conversation. Indeed, having been thru something like tat, I can understand how the priorities for him change... no more chio girls... no more appearance... it is more about getting along fine and the willingness to commit. Just the last entry or something, I wrote abt the problem with having a ghost of the past. I guess in my fren's case, the ghost could hv done him well. All the best bro, congrats...


Hisashi Mitsui |4/17/2006 08:35:00 PM
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Sunday, April 16, 2006 || This is outstanding Retro

This is totally retro... I grew up in Pri sch idolising this boy band called New Kids on the Block... I love a lot of their songs, and totally into this song called, I'll Loving You Forever. I swear I have the mp3 somewhere... haha... anyway, came across this song by them back then, very nice... It is called "This One's for the Children", sounded like some peace mission song... pardon their outfit... this is in the late 1980s... haha... enjoy....


Hisashi Mitsui |4/16/2006 10:55:00 PM
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(0) comments A cool service on a hot morning

The weather today is hot.. manz... 34-35 degrees... killer... anyway, i made my way to Punggol to attend a service which my csemate invited me for. The church is Central Christ Church, it was on Straits Times on Sat... Anyway, look at the two pics and u noe why...

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A cross on the ceiling

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A huge cross on the walls of the church, which is also on the walls of the main hall

The building was real nice... the service was fantastic... they had bands, and choir is like a rock band type... somewhat reminds me of the services in US... very vibrant and energetic... though somehow, i still prefer the traditional old school type... but a new change though... i guess i need some getting used to... Anyway, the service was mainly done by sharing of church members... which is nice... as it comes across as something closer, more personal... making the whole service rather easy to relate... in terms of relating the teachings of Christ or Bible to our lives... Anyway, I would like to share something today... just for laughs...

Some guy found this on the internet... really funny...
Titled : The Property Laws of a Toddler

1. If I like it, it's mine.
2. If it's in my hand, it's mine.
3. If I can take it from you, it's mine.
4. If I had it a little while ago, it's mine.
5. If it's mine, it must never appear to be yours in any way.
6. If I'm doing or building something, all of the pieces are mine.
7. If it looks like mine, it's mine.
8. If I saw it first, it's mine.
9. If you are playing with something and you put it down, it automatically becomes mine.
10. If it's broken, it's yours.

haha... it is HIS !!!

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Hisashi Mitsui |4/16/2006 06:05:00 PM
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(1) comments Kiss Goodbye By Wang Lee Home

oops... forgot to add the S on the readers on the previous post... ok, to my avid readerS...


Hisashi Mitsui |4/16/2006 03:34:00 PM
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(0) comments Forever Love by Wang Lee Home

To my avid readers...


Hisashi Mitsui |4/16/2006 12:30:00 AM
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Saturday, April 15, 2006 || Ghost of the Past

3 nights of fun... met up with some old friends fr Uni also... a good weekend, going to be better tmr when i am going to join my csemate for a service at his church, it is easter afterall... Really looking forward to that...

Anyway, can't help but feel lucky at times... having to hear some of the difficult situations some of my frens are in... It makes me wonder that whatever happen to me earlier this year wasn't so bad, besides the financial problems and troubles, emotionally, though it could be scarring to some... I mean, I will be willing to keep in contact with her if she still wans to... Life goes on u noe...

ok, starting with the first one, a certain someone finding it difficult to love... to fall in love the way he did for the first love... perhaps the first relationship took a toll, but having been through one which he poured in everything emotionally, and yet unable to be together due to different perceptives and priorities in life... a couple of relationships had passed, but somehow, he is unable to take them into the level which he was in the first one... a chat with him reveals a certain guilt or even fear to engage in the relationship... his thinking is that he might "hai4" or drag the next partner into somewhere similar like the previous ones, or even worse... basically, he feels that he is NOT ready for love, or rather a relationship where he has to think that marriage is the eventual result of it...

second one, not a very close fren, though i m closer to the late bf... but came to know that she tried one relationship and failed, due to the memories of the previous bf... it must be hard for her, esp when they were actually in a stage where marriage was a topic of discussion... well, shit happened, and she was left alone... an attempt to love was made, but some memories are hard to replace...

The ghosts of the past sometimes haunt us in many ways, from our daily activities, to the physical items around the hse or in life, the memories of being together in certain places, to spend time doing something together, all these will bring certain parts of our lives to a halt... but somehow, we usually dun realise it until it happened... It is difficult to let go, and take the courage to plung into another relationship or dimension, not knowing the uncertainty it brings... choosing to fall back to the good memories of the past, esp when separation was due to circumstances more than choice... so comparing my situation, it is easier to let go... Basically the only pple who can help themselves ARE themselves... to OPEN UP your heart, and to accept the uncertainty of the love that comes in... and to have the courage to plunge... there is a chinese saying, "If you want to capture the Tiger's cub, you will have to enter the Tiger's Den." I think the analogy is the same, if u nvr go out there and try emotionally, u will nvr receive the kind of love which you longed for... or desired...


Hisashi Mitsui |4/15/2006 11:31:00 PM
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(0) comments The Magic Fundoshi day !!

Finally, the day of the Magic Fundoshi has come... haha... was looking forward to the play... frankly speaking, i quite enjoyed watching plays... but then again, they dun usually come cheap... so usually i choose to support local productions... perhaps coz the jokes are more relevant... but anyway, we had dinner and went the Settler's, shulinpova's fav hangout. Had a couple of games, quite fun... here is the pic...

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From left, Grace, Dino, Shuwen, Shulin, Choon Seng and me (standing)


Hisashi Mitsui |4/15/2006 11:18:00 PM
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Friday, April 14, 2006 || Part 2 - Fall in Love again

A week, then a month passed. Allie had made many friends in school, and Noel was relieved about that. He spent more time on trading than usual after Allie attended school, and had been successful, until Allie's second month at school. One of the company he had invested in had been exposed some financial scandals, and affected the confidence of investors. He lost a number of thousands. The lack of business for his consulting service had not help the situation. His only consolation everyday was seeing Allie's smile when she alighted from the school bus, waving goodbye to her friends, running to her dad for usual hug.

One Wednesday, the phone rang. With cellular phone everywhere now, Noel will only received calls from the house phone from his parents or Allison's parents. He picked up the phone expected a familiar voice, however, an unfamiliar voice came on. "Good afternoon, May I speak to Mr Yeo?". Recovering from the surprise, he replied a yes. The news that followed gave Noel more shock, not believing what he was hearing. He grabbed a shirt, a quick change of pants, he ran to his Toyota. Turning on his engine, he stepped on the accelator and made his way to Allie's school.

As he stepped into the school, he tried to remember how to go to the Principal office, having been to the school only once when he registered for Allie. When he reached the door, he took a pause, adjusted his attire, and knocked on the door. A loud "Come in" came on, and Noel entered the room. What he saw was shocking as much as he heard it over the phone, Allie was standing on the left side, having a bruise on her left cheek. Her shirt was torn on the right sleeve. Another girl, about the same age as Allie, was standing on her left. She got a blacken left eye. A middle-aged couple was sitting in front of him, facing the principal, who was desked behind the desk. The last person in the room was a lady, behind the door, holding on to it while Noel entered. She reached out her hand, and introduced herself as Ms Tan, and told Noel that it was her who called him earlier. She went on to introduce everyone in the room, starting from the principal to the parents of the second girl. She went on to explain that Allie and the girl got into a fight during recess, at the canteen. She apologised for not intervening earlier as it was during recess time. As Noel listened to Ms Tan's words, he glanced over to Allie, not believing that his little girl had turn into a gangster. As Ms Tan concluded that both of them did not answer why they started fighting, they had no choice but to call in the parents. When Ms Tan finished her words, Noel was already looked at Allie for answer. He walked over to her, squatted down, and hold her face in his hands. She still had tears in her eyes, as if knowing what her father was going to ask her, she held up two pieces of a broken pencil. It was the pencil which he had given her on her first day. As he reached for the two pieces, she looked at the girl to let her father know that she broke it.

"You wanna tell me what happen?", Noel asked, Allie looked at her teacher Ms Tan. "It is okay," he continued.

Allie told Noel that the girl wanted to borrow her pencil to look at it, but it was too precious to her, so she offered another pencil. The girl insisted and they started snatching the pencil, breaking the pencil into two during the process. Out of anger, she punched the girl and the girl retaliated, before the fight broke up. By then, the parents were looking at him for some answers. Noel wiped away Allie's tears, still holding her face with his hands, he said, "I know the pencil is precious to you. But it is not a good enough reason to fight. You should not fight no matter what." He turned and apologized to them. Then he turned back to Allie and said,"This girl is in the wrong in trying to snatch your pencil in the first place... " he looked at the girl and returned his sights to his daughter,"But you started the fight, so you should apologize for it." Allie looked at Noel as if wondering if she should be the one apologizing, but when Noel nobbed, she finally turned to the girl and said, "I am sorry I punched you." She turned to Ms Tan and said, "I am sorry I started the fight." Noticing that Allie had the same sort of respect she had for her grands, Noel knew she is a teacher Allie respected. The parents also ordered their daughter to apologize for snatching and breaking the pencil. The principal then explained to the parents and Noel that since it was a first offence, both girls will not be punished but will be left with a warning, and any future violence will be dealt with through detention or even caning. Allie looked at Noel with her big eyes when she heard the word Cane. Noel knew Allie's fear for that, and swing his finger at her, to warn her for future actions.


Hisashi Mitsui |4/14/2006 03:24:00 PM
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(0) comments Should we always go for something we like or think properly before deciding?

Fantastic dinner yst... the food there was fantastic, the people I ate with was fantastic... we even held our dept meeting after the dinner... steady right? The part 2 wasnt quite the same.... when me, becks and dino reached there, we were already knew a certain Mr Ong, Ms Wang and Lim are putting aeroplane... The place, Balaclava, however, is pretty nice... the band is actually quite good, the crowd was very much our age, filled with executives, mainly office personnel... However, we reached there feeling utterly under-dressed... Anyway, we had a drink and chatted... For once, we din talked abt work... and were actually talked abt the possibilities, probability... interest and stuff like that...

Like I mentioned in the previous post, somehow, do you know when u are falling for someone? U noe how u usually have a certain type of person in mind, and when u feel u fell for someone, do u actually go and think abt whether this person fits the bill? (not totally lah)... sometimes we got to follow our heart... and listen to what was said... which brings me to another thing which i also posted b4, regrets... many a time, when you feel for someone, and when u are trying to decide between love/infatuation/crush, the time u take could be too long and ended up, when u r done, the opportunity is gone... This not only happen to love/relationship, also happen in life in a lot of times... like business opportunities, job opportunities... etc etc... sigh... which brings me to the question,"Should we always go for something we like or think properly before deciding?" Life is short... and chances are plenty... once gone, wont be able to get back most of the time... i guess it is up to us to decide which thing is worth trying, which thing is worth the consideration first... if u see something, go for it... talk later... haha... tat's my view...


Hisashi Mitsui |4/14/2006 10:06:00 AM
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Thursday, April 13, 2006 || Will you know when u fall....

Going to a dept dinner soon... Really glad to have this batch of colleagues working together now... Our current boss, Raymond, is super nice... always treating us for dinner after a bonus... and he is one of the boss whom we can chat like a friend... so u can imagine how lucky i m... sad that pple like michael have to leave... if not, the dept will be more fun now... haha... anyway, off to dinner... SONG !!! and to part 2 @ Bala...

Do you ever have the feeling that you fell for someone? So what exactly is the usual process of falling for someone? Of coz, there has to be a certain degree of attraction... physical or emotional... before any sort of contact were to take place... I still am in the opinion that the two person should be able to be friends first... before considering to be a couple... then if there is an attraction which stretches more than what platonic friendship is... then the "maybe" and "perhaps" will come in... however, how do u noe when u actually feel more than friendship for this person? Is it when you started day-dreaming abt the possibilities? or when u started missing the person when you dun see her/him? or when u wan to tell her/him every happy or sad thing u do during the day? And then how do u diffentiate between an infatuation or love in such a feeling do comes along? So many questions, so many unknowns... haha... as the saying goes, FOLLOW YOUR HEART !!!


Hisashi Mitsui |4/13/2006 05:41:00 PM
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Wednesday, April 12, 2006 || Translation of Feng

Some of you who read my blog will know that I love this song. One fren asked me a couple of days ago what the lyrics means, here is the translation I found...

Maple

The dark cloud places a piece of shadow in our hearts
I listen respectfully to my mood, which has already been quiet for a long time
Clear and transparent
Just like the beautiful scenery
It’s always only clear when seeing it in my memory

Can the heart, that has been thoroughly hurt, still continue to love me?
I make an effort to pull up the pair of hands that have no warmth
The tenderness in the past has already been locked by time
Only leaving sadness that doesn’t go away
The maple leaves slowly falling down are like thoughts
I light a candle to warm up the end of autumn
The northern lights plunder the edge of the sky
The northern wind brushes past the expressions of missing you
I take love and burn it into fallen leaves
Yet I can’t get back that familiar face

The maple leaves slowly falling down are like thoughts
Why must retrieving be hurried before winter comes?
Loving you passing through time
Two rows of tears from the end of autumn
Let love permeate through the ground
All I want is you to be by my side

The graceful red rain in between the mountainside
Withering with the north wind
I lightly swing the wind chimes
I want
To awaken the love that has been deserted
Snowflakes are already spread all over the ground
Deeply scared that the maple leaves outside the window have already become frozen


Hisashi Mitsui |4/12/2006 07:21:00 PM
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Tuesday, April 11, 2006 || Part 1 - Fall In Love Again

I started writing another short story last night... hee... here is part 1...

As Noel stood at the corner of the road, she observed that it is blooming time for the tree on the opposite side of the road again. It is January, and somehow, this tree will be filled with white flowers, diffentiating it from the other trees around it. The sight is beautiful and heart warming. Noel looked up the road, waiting for Allie's school bus to come. It is Allie's first day at the local neighbour school, and Noel wanted to be there to pick her up, just in case something unhappy happened. After about 10 minutes, a white bus with a little blue strip in the middle soon appeared from the far left side of the road. Noel looked in anxiety, hoping that Allie's first day will be fine and she will make many friends. Allie was already at the exit of the bus with a middle-aged woman holding her to prevent her from falling down. As Allie took her little steps off the bus, Noel noticed that she wasn't smiling. Noel bent down to give his sweetheart daughter a hug and carry her up into his arms. She seems relieved to be in the arms of Noel again.

"How was your first day darling?" Noel asked gently. Allie buried her face into her father's shoulder, not wanting to answer the question. He knew that she did not have a good day, or worse a bad one too. So he did not question, choosing to do it when they reached home.

At seven, Allie is like a mini version of Allison, her late mother, who died due to complications after giving birth. It has been hard for Noel to bring up his little girl, especially after losing someone so dear to him. He named her Allie, so that she will always remember her mother whom she did not meet, and also for him to remember how excited and determined Allison was during her pregnacy to bring a healthy daughter to this world.

As Noel opened the door, he felt his shirt damp, and he realised Allie was crying. He moved in and closed the door behind him and put Allie down. "What's wrong sweetie? Did anything bully you?" Allie forced a difficult shake of head, with her two ponytail swinging away. "Then what's happen in school?" Allie hugged her father tightly and said, "I missed you daddy, can I not go to school tomorrow?" Noel put his arms around her and stroked her head. "Silly girl, it will be okay once you made more friends. Now now, go wash up, dinner will be ready soon." Allie hurried into her room, wiping away her tears in between her steps.

Noel realised how hard it was for his daughter to spend half a day at school. Since Allison's death, Noel has been working from home. He was a tireless lawyer, but the death and birth of two loved ones seems to take a lot from this man. He turned to freelance legal consulting and a little stock trading for income. His savings from his previous work as well as some money from Allison's bank account was sufficient to pay off the house and left him with a comfortable amount to work from home. He wanted to spend as much time with his daughter, as if to make up from the loss time that he spent on court cases rather than with Allison. His insistence in taking care of Allie and not moving in with his parents worried people around him, but few can understand how difficult emotional was it for him to handle, especially right at the start. However, during his visits to both parents, he had always managed to convince them that he is doing a good job. Allie has became the grandparents little angel. She is polite and respectful to them, requesting for an occasion sweet or two, she always looked to Noel for approval of anything she does. Somehow, it could be the shelter that he has been providing, that Allie is not comfortable with not spending time away from her father.

During dinner, Noel asked Allie if she made any friends during the course of the day. She looked up from her spaghetti, nobbed and put up one tiny finger. Noel was happy not to see a zero and asked her about this friend. Though not excited, she did managed to murmur a few sentence about her new-found friend. After dinner, Allie was doing her homework in her new little table, which is placed in Noel's study, where he worked. Noel went to his "secret" drawer where he will keep some fanciful looking pencils, pens and other stationaries, as rewards to Allie during her home-tutoring days. He pulled up red and purple pencils and walked over to her, holding them behind him. She stared at her father with her big shiny eyes, giving him a board smile in the process. He smiled back, and handed her one of the pencils, "Now sweetie, this pencil is to reward you for completing your first day at school." He then handed her the second pencil, "This one is for you to give to your friend, thanking her to be your first friend at school."

Allie looked at the pencils, "They are the same?" Puzzled why her daddy will give her two similar pencils. "This is so that you and your friend will remember the first day of school in future, remember it is fate that you two became friends." Allie scratched her head and then said, "Okay." She smiled at Noel and said thank you, as she always does.

As Noel moved back to his desk, he glanced at the clock, making sure Allie does not go past her bedtime. Over the years, Allie has been spending all her time with him. When she was old enough to walk and talk, she will paced into her father's study room, staring at him reading the legal documents, running her fingers across the law manuals, and then go back to her toys in her room. She will do this a few times, until Noel decided to give her his attention. Then, she will usually asked for a story-reading, some time on the tire swing outside their house, or a trip to the nearby playground. As a kid, she is filled with energy and very active. Whenever she is at the playground, she will run around until she is all sweaty and wet. She also had her quiet moments with her dolls and tea sessions. Like most little kids, she always like pets, but the only one Noel allowed so far is a goldfish. He wanted her to know the responsibility of owning a pet and not leaving it to die after a few days of fun. She feeds her goldfish everyday and even called her Bubbles. She remembered that Noel promised to get her a dog when she is old enough and will ask her father for a dog whenever her birthday is approaching. And as Noel turned his attention back to his papers, he took a glance at the last photo he took with Allison, 7 months pregnant. It was taken on a rare period Noel spent with Allison since their marriage, bringing her to a nearby country resort to take a breather from his ever-piling work. He managed a smile, and mouthed the words "I love you" to the picture.


Hisashi Mitsui |4/11/2006 09:08:00 PM
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Monday, April 10, 2006 || The importance of Family

I tink everyone will agree with me if i told u how impt family is... When IT happened, my family was worried dead... my dad, for one, was worried that i will lock myself out, keep myself out from the world... on the other hand, when i DO stepped out of the hse, he will be worried that i will drowned myself with alcohol... my mum, on other hand, jus pretended nothing happen... and just allowed me to be myself... though i noe deep inside she is worried too... well, things turn out fine... Yes, it is very important to remain close to your family... no matter what they do sometimes... when IT happened, my thoughts were just to return home... into the shelter of my mum and dad... under the blanket at home... like the saying goes, there is no place like home.

Sometime ago, i was asking one of my close frens abt what type of guys she prefer... u noe, the usual stuff... we talked abt the norms, character, job, blah blah blah.. then suddenly she mentioned the termed, "family-oriented". She is of the opinion that this is very important, for it will be somehow bring the person or couple to do the right thing in future, from financial handling, to decision-making... from child-raising to family-planning... and i cant agreed more... Most of us have grown up with the shelter of our family, some had it more than the others, some live it more independently than the rest... However, we all knew how tough life can be when we started working, knowing all the Sh*t in the world outside... and many of us will probably tink how good is it if we were to go back some 10/20 years back... where we can live in a carefree world... where our basic needs like food, shelter, money are all being taken care of... there is no worries abt job-finding, abt office politics, abt nasty bosses, abt pple backstabbing u... it is almost a perfect world... allowing us to make mistakes without much punishment or consequences to worry abt... I always tink filial piety is one of the most desirable character in a person... for those who are, keep it up !!!! hey bee, things will be fine with ur daddy... CheerZ


Hisashi Mitsui |4/10/2006 10:50:00 PM
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Sunday, April 09, 2006 || Regret

Was talking to a couple of my good frens... then something came up... this word called REGRET: To remember with a feeling of loss or sorrow. Something which probably everyone has at some point of their lives, including me. My fren was talking in particular abt not knowing another person better. Which gave me some memories... one of my regrets was not knowing this girl from sec sch better. Her name is Karen Tan. We actually had many many chances to get acquainted during the course of the 4 years in HS... but somehow, we din really cherish the chances... she actually lived in a blk within walking distance from mine... she was fr Girl Guides and I was fr NPCC, so we actually see each other on sats... and during that time, there isnt such thing as handphone, so we din have the chance to really keep in contact... not sure how is she now... last i remember i saw her was @ Marina Sq before they undergo renovations (so u can imagine how long ago was that)... though i m not even sure it is her... n worse, not even sure if she recognised me if i had approached her... hopefully if she see this, she will drop me a msg over msn, so that we can rekindled this lost friendship...


Hisashi Mitsui |4/09/2006 11:30:00 PM
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Hisashi Mitsui |4/09/2006 11:56:00 AM
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(0) comments A prayer for U

Have been praying hard for a fren whose dad is not too well physically... Dun worry, things will turn out well... here is something for u...

Jesus always make me strong, when I'm down and all alone.
Jesus he's my backbone, when I can't carry the load on my own.
Jesus is my tower of power, when I can't reach any higher.
Jesus give me strength every hour he's my leader when I have no direction.
Jesus he's the fuel to my fire, when I'm cold, he's my fuel,
when my body crave for nourishment.
Jesus always makes me strong, when I'm down.
Jesus gives me strength when I'm alone.
I don't think I could make it each and everyday without his love and tenderness,
Jesus is my tower of power, he gives me strength every hour,
Jesus always makes me strong.

I hope you find as much strength and comfort in God as I do.


Hisashi Mitsui |4/09/2006 11:35:00 AM
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Saturday, April 08, 2006 || How do u fall?

Had a fulfilling dinner @ Tiong Bahru with a fren and a long chatting session... sometimes it is strange how u can chat with a person who u noe for only a few mths and yet chat like u known each other for years... almost like soul mates... I am glad to find a fren like tat... hope we will keep in contact...

Was actually chatting abt types of partners with regards to looks, character, temper etc... I realised that it is hard to strike a full balance between everything... esp with regards to temper... Like example, I got a fren fr hall, who always wanted someone who will be able to "protect" her.... however, she will prefer a mild or no temper bf... which is pretty difficult... pple who are fierce and dun like to be bullied are usually pple who are furious...with a bit of fire in them... of coz, they can TRY to control their fire when they r with family... sometimes it is hard as well... My dad is a person with quite a hell of a temper also... but he loves my mum... and at the end of the day, although there are quarrels, they still ended up doing things together... my dad may even try to spice things up a little coz of the quarrels...

Then we actually talked abt the thing abt falling for someone... i would say most pple tends to categorize a person into the "mayb", "happy to be" or "no-no" group when we meet someone... it is true... but the initial "chemistry" will help us categorized pple into these groups... and usually unless something significant happens, they won't change... or perhaps after a long period of time, when both parties changed... well, that's usually what human does...


Hisashi Mitsui |4/08/2006 11:16:00 PM
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(0) comments Do you want to know the future?

Interesting morning... i collected the tickets for the Magic Fundoshi play which I will be watching next sat with some frens... hope it wont disappoint me... heard it was from the script writers of Boeing Boeing, which is fantastic...

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It's been a long time since I stepped to Tampines Central... strange but true... i tink usually u dun hang ard the places ard ur own neighbourhood... haha... anyway, lots has change... the renovations at the MRT station has been completed with shops lined up on both sides... i was just walking along the shops in TM when i stepped into the Life Bookshop (a christian book shop)... suddenly remember my bible was taken by someone... so i do need to buy one... i bought one and also got a copy of "The Green Pastures". For those who dunno, this is a daily reading for christians, usually comes free... and comes in a 3-mth basis... good for pple like me i tink, who still keep a close distance with God despite the lack of church...

Today's reading is interesting, and I like to share with everyone coz it is also true in real life...
ACTS 1:7 "And he said unto them, It is not for you to know the times or the seasons, which the Father hath put in his own power"

The disciples wanted to know what the future holds... the lesson to be drawn here is that to many, it is good to know the future... from old times till now, there are los of ways to "try" to see what the future holds, tarot cards, feng shui-8 character etc... even in some religions, they can try to give u advices here n there... However, the question is, "Is it good to know the future?" If it is good, of coz... like example, u noe u going to end up being rich, marrying a beautiful woman... what abt the bad ones? Like u noe u r going to die early, or not marrying at all etc... is it good to know these negatives and live the rest of ur lives in misery coz of anticipation of them? My opinion is, u come to this world with nothing and u leave with nothing more, except memories... so it is up to u to make ur life useful and happy and have beautiful memories or live a rotting life with nothing but trouble to the yourself and others... The choice is yours...


Hisashi Mitsui |4/08/2006 01:12:00 PM
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Friday, April 07, 2006 || Ball Carriers...

Just back from a dialogue session with Big boss... came out totally feeling the same that i tot i would be feeling... SICK... totally sick... not with the answers i got from big boss for voicing out my concerns... but for the things which two boot lickers are trying to put forth... one of them actually tried to "hint" to the audience that if u retired at 45, n can't survive out in the real world, it is ur own fault, coz u nvr plan financially... which was something totally out of the point, from the questions i put forth... duh... if u wan to boot lick, do it with some relevance... frankly, the organisation makes me sick at times, it is a world of unfairness and show biz, coupled with lots of stupid pple in the organisation... it is the presence of the wonderful frens i hv at work and a superb boss that keeps me going... no doubt i noe our work is not appreciated, but this boss is the type whom u will work hard n die for... he is ever appreciative of what we do... n seriously, i thank God that i hv a superb boss right now...

i still hv about 3 years left in my bond... not too long, not too short... i really hope to be in shitfeng's situation right now... but wth.. life goes on... end of the day, i tink it is important to have a life outside work... to relief stress and strain from the course of work... two little treats i hv given myself, a play next sat with a few good frens... n the phuket trip with my sec sch buddies... would really love to stay on the beach and read a book... enjoy the sun, the sand, and the sea... looking forward to them...


Hisashi Mitsui |4/07/2006 11:49:00 PM
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Thursday, April 06, 2006 || A Heck of a day

What a heck of a day... was supposed to play soccer... but sadly, due to the venue's availability, we only mananged to play for abt 20 min... very sad, as i m looking forward to it really... too bad... I guess it wasnt meant to be... so we ended up in East Coast Hawker, sipping away on some really shiok sugar cane juice and some BBQ chicken wings... quite cool...

Was talking to a fren abt something interesting... rules of love... yah, it is strange... but i guess it does exist... for example, i got a fren who will nvr dating someone at the workplace, his theory is that it will be awkward n stuff... nvr dating a fren's ex (this i agree too, nvr thought of it, but it exists)... nvr dating ex gf/bf's siblings... nvr date an ex's frens... pretty cool if u started thinking abt it... somehow, our minds just put a block to these pple, causing us incapable of thinking abt it... it is there, but we jus do not realise its existence...

Have you wonder what is usually ur first priority in a partner? I mean, ok, granted that looks is usually one of the first things u see... Yes yes... some of u are thinking abt the word shallow right now... i understand... but look at it this way, u r going to look at this person, possibly for the rest of ur life... u hv to at least find someone whom u dun mind doing that... no need to look beautiful or drop dead gorgeous... but at least something which is acceptable to yourself...

The other factors? besides the usual chemistry which everyone so commonly use... for example, job? sometimes this is impt to some pple, it signifies the person's financial capability, or even his ambitions to a certain extent... what abt background? such as family, n stuff... well, there are some extremes to this... i got a fren's whose parents can gamble away their one mth's pay in the game of poker/horse racing... This is interesting, religion? I, for one, is a christian. Though i dun go to churches much (but i really wan to find one to go regularly), but i do find a lot of peace and comfort in the religion, in praying, in listening to priest n stuff, reading the bible... what abt common likes? or dislikes? Seriously, i tink this plays a big part. Just take a common problem, Soccer... most guys like to watch... imagine the gf Hates him when he watch soccer... n fyi, soccer is on almost every weekend... ehrm... what abt certain living habits? this is abit hard to find out unless u stayed with the person before... i m not talking abt a one-week tour to Korea or that sort... but those which u stayed together... then go to work, come home etc... like some girls cannot stand untidy guys, like me... if the tolerance level is that there, then all hell will break loose after marriage... ehrm eating habits? (This one i sure get into trouble one, haha) ... for example, vegetarian? or even something as minor as chilli eating? what abt lifestyle? u noe, some pple actually love to gamble mj, soccer... good example is my daddy.... haha... my mum will nag at him everytime he comes home in the middle of the night type... or there are some buggers who Love to club every weekend, and the partners dun like... there is alot more factors... sometimes at the start of the relationship, u will not mind, as the honeymoon period is still there... but once u go deeper into thinking... some of these things could play a major role in future... depending how much u mind the negatives... something to ponder... However, do take a few minutes to look at the positives too... for they are also part of the reason which brings you two together... I guess at the end of the day... it is really how u come to a compromise also... like my dad, he jus makes it a point not to come home beyond 11 everytime he plays... except during CNY... n my mum is a happy woman... so... jus dig your brains out... some of the priorities in relationship will be priorities if your tolerance to them is low... but it will be jus another part of life if u dun take it too seriously...


Hisashi Mitsui |4/06/2006 08:57:00 PM
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Tuesday, April 04, 2006 || Changing your partner?

Sometime ago, i was with a fren and we were talking abt this thing called Change. One of the most difficult things in life... It is also deemed as one of the most difficult things to handle in a relationship. U see, there are phases in life, from pri sch, to sec sch, to JC/poly, to Uni, to working life... I am sure most of u reading this are familiar with these stages of life, a very typical Singaporean life... Pple changed thru these phases, character, lifestyles, opinions of life, likes and dislikes and even values...

My fren and I were actually talking abt changing our partners... U see, she is in an opinion that we should accept our partners as it is... and to a major extent, i do agreed, certainly... in the first place, we would have like our partners becos of who they are... what they like, what they do, etc etc... However, do we like the ENTIRE him/her? u see, I am in the opinion that no doubt we should accept our partners as they are, however, we shld also look at the other aspects... like bad habits, wrong concept of life etc...

Take me for example, like many guys, i m quite untidy... those who been to my Uni hostel room can testify to that... and i used to be very picky abt food, though now i m not that picky, but still, i still do not eat veggie... and i dun really like to wear shirts... these are some of the things which my ex-gfs tried to change... and frankly, to a certain extent, i m ok with that, these are bad habits... and if they can change me on those, i will gladly do it... so yes, we should accept how this person is, their frens, family, lifestyle, however, bad habits, wrong lifestyle, wrong frens shld be eliminate out of their lives if they cherish themselves, and sometimes, pple jus do not love themselves enuff to do it... and perhaps the addition of another person into their lives, then the need to turn good into bad, turn wrong into right, will be more prominent. If the love of someone becomes an antidote to something harmful in life, why not?


Hisashi Mitsui |4/04/2006 09:18:00 PM
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Monday, April 03, 2006 || The strength within...

u noe how sometimes u noe something, by a feeling of some sort... a few years ago, i actually sort of, knew what i wanted... the kind of life i will wan to lead... somehow, things end up a lot different from what i wanted to be... perhaps, that's the problem with human... we knew what we wanted... but somehow, things dun turn out the way u wan... is it coz u din pursue it? or circumstances do not allow u to do it? if it is coz u din pursue it, is it coz ur determination not enuff? or simply take the basic easy way out instead? to a large extent, i tink i m guilty of that... strength from within is not enuff... so I pray to the mighty one today... for the strength within to stay strong...


Hisashi Mitsui |4/03/2006 10:58:00 PM
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(1) comments Part 2 to Feng

A kind told me that there is a part 2 to the MTV I posted on my last entry. So here it is... Enjoy


Hisashi Mitsui |4/03/2006 10:03:00 PM
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Sunday, April 02, 2006 || To Forget easily is a Gift

"To Forget easily is a Gift" This is something from :A moment to Remember. Indeed, it is... how cool if we can just forget all the unhappy things in life and remember the happy ones? Memories are perhaps one of God's greatest gift to us... for us to remember moments when we wanted to... moments which we will treasure and want to keep in the deepest part of us... to help us remember how it shapes us, how it influences us... Moments like the first sunset, our first kiss, the moment your first gf said yes, the smile on your kids' little face... they are like imprints, cravings, pernamently locked into our hearts... I am glad most of the memories I chose to keep are good ones...

Heard this song on my newly bought Jay Chou's DVD. Fell in love with it immediately. to you who love Jay, enjoy...



Hisashi Mitsui |4/02/2006 01:04:00 PM
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(0) comments A little Fate and Attention

Just finished watching some clips on my fren, Jiayong's blog, named "A moment to remember". Wonderful clip mackie... thanks for sharing... Almost a korean version of Nic Sparks', The Notebook.

After the clips, can't help but notice how Fate/Destiny toyed with us, like what I put on my header... it is strange how pple can go one whole big round and ended up being frens, enemies, buddies, husband and wife... Or how some pple can just met for 10 min, and yet chatted like they known each other for 10 years... it is something beyond what our science can explain... just like the "chemistry" i talked abt earlier... Went out with a good fren just now for a movie, and it is nice to hang out with frens, esp someone who u can jus talked and chatted for the longest time, and the feeling is like u hv known this person forever... It takes a little "Yuan Fen" to be able to be frens... Time, space and opportunity... We shall do this more often ok babe?!

Anyway, we talked abt couple having quarrels... So I was saying that a lot girls actually get angry becos of something else, rather than the thing at hand... A cute fren told me last weekend, "Sometimes it is also not that the girl is angry, it is that the girl wants more attention." Girls being girls, tend to bottle up things... trying to accept the partner the way they are... It just depends on how much/long the girl bottles up before letting it go... whereas guys will tend to be more straight-forward and expressing their unhappiness... to me, quarrel is jus one of the ways of communication, to allow the other person to understand him/her more... A relationship is a journey, not a trip... Patience plays a major role most of the time...


Hisashi Mitsui |4/02/2006 01:16:00 AM
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Saturday, April 01, 2006 || Happy April's Fool Day

It is 4am in the morning now... Work life has been alittle more hectic than usual, due to the fact that I am trying to juggle the time i have between the upcoming exercise, which I am 2IC, and the renovation project which I am in charge. With one taking place directly after the other, I am starting to feel the strain esp when it comes to tidying up some details etc. Nevertheless, hopefully Monday, I can finish up the renovation details and concentrate on the exercise since it is taking place first.

Was just out with two of my good frens from Uni. We went for dinner, then went to MOS for some TCSS session. We drank from the jazz bar to the retro one and finally to the 2nd floor bar counter. It was fun, jus hanging ard, chatting and catching up. Met another old fren from Uni there, who is actually a lovely and fun-loving girl. Realised she works in an agency closely related to my work. Anyway, one of my two frens was actually, sort of, picked up by some girl which has been at the same bar counter ever since we arrived there. U see, this fren is actually quite good-looking, so it is no surprise such a thing happens. Anyway, since he is attached, he had no interest in going further than chatting. So end of the day, we went to hv supper and called it a night. It is nice to hang out with old frens like tat sometimes. Guys, next time we must jio YJ out too...

Anyway, we actually chatted abt this girl who attempted to pick my fren up. And one of the comment we had was that, she was there the whole night, and no one attempted to pick her up. Which brings me to my topic today, Men likes things which are desired. Since the start of time and stone age, men have created numerous competitions, from hunting to writing, from running to soccer... all these, of coz, is in The Spirit of Competition. (Mitshibishi)

U see, most human likes competitions. The more the merrier, the more the competition, the more desired the prize is. And I think this theory applies to men and women too. Whenever a girl is sought after by another man and fails, the next man will have a higher sense of satisfaction if he succeed, and vice versa. This is not uncommon, as women sometimes also fight over man. On the other hand, the target person who feel very "wanted" when he/she is being woo by more than one person at one go.

Which brings me to the next question, "Is this one of the reasons why some women, or even men plays hard to get?" It is a known fact that pretty girls have more suitors. However, do they purposely play hard to get, or do they really have no interest? Well, in such cases, won't u be worried that your tactics may backfire? I mean, yes, men likes competition. BUT, men likes to WIN as well. So in contrast in what i said, some men may choose to go after something which is easier to get.

Also, does it mean that if this person has more suitors, whether guys or girls, he/she is more attractive or have a better character than one who doesn't have as many? Not necssarily of coz... signals can always be sent out, and signals can be wrong, or mis-leading, esp in the case of playing hard to get.

So guys and girls, exercise your own judgement in "competitions" whether u r the participants or the prize. End of the day, remember, that few moments of victory does not guarantee u anything in life, all it guaranteed is a fond memory of winning.


Hisashi Mitsui |4/01/2006 04:08:00 AM
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